Friday, April 20, 2007

sometimes i really dislike people..

Okay so the word dislike might be a little weak for my frusterations with this one person, but ah well...you get the point..

Theres this fellow i work with who absolutey drives me insane! He treats everybody like hes better than them, he can't do anything wrong and hes usually the first person to point out when someone elses wrong but if that finger lands in his direction ohmyfuckinggod..it can't be!!

Hes condescending. He always criticizes me in my management of the restaurant when I close and because he doesn't show respect a few others decide not to either, because hes been there longer. WHOTHEFUCKCARES!! If he had wanted the job he could have taken it, but he chose not to so don't tell me how to do it. I do the best I can. I don't fight with the kids because it drains my energy when they're doing something wrong I tell them and make sure they know to do it right the next time. 'Nuff said. I'm not going to have a mind blowing arguement with a teenager sorry. I'm not a parent.

What really chafes though is hes a rat. Hes the biggest rat there is and hes always telling the daytime manager what I'm doing wrong so that when I come in I get told I'm doing it wrong etc etc..Yanno if I let the kids do some of thier closing chores a little earlier whoopie do. Seriously, as long as it gets done and it isn't disrupting the flow of things bugger off. I pick my battles. And the big ones that could land me without a job or the get the owner in trouble, I fight but I'm not going to nitpick. See above. I refuse to argue with a teenager, just as I'd refuse to argue with a child. The major things in the bigger picture get done.

And then I get told I'm going to hell by another guy. Oh that made me laugh. Apparently I'm going to hell because "God and Ala are at war overseas and God is losing" -rme- Where to begin, ah yes how about the fact that isn't Gods war, and it sure as hell aint Ala's. I'm sorry if fifty some soldiers or one overbearing head of government decides to pick a fight with another, just because one is "christian" - and I use this term loosely - and one is Muslin or whatever they call it, doesnt it make it a war proclaimed by either god. Its stupid men fighting over stupid soil. No religion involved accept for the fact that in all honesty, they claim they're believers in their faith. If I pick a fight with a JW - its me and that person, I don't drag my God into it. God didn't pick the fight. We did. Case closed. Nothing more to see here.

Secondly, I was told that I've ruined the lives of the children I taught the bible to some few years ago. Whelp. Thats a sorry ass point of view if ever there was one. Point in fact. People need faith. Who was it that said religion is the opiate of the masses? Well, all personal beliefs aside this is true. People need to believe in something. So you don't believe in god, you believe that the earth and all its inhabitants are the direct result of years of evolution - Then you believe in science. If you're athiest you believe in nothing, but you're still believing in something. If you're agnostic you can't make up your mind. I'd rather teach these kids to put their faith in a god of morals and justice than have them grow up and place their faith in 90% of the crap that's going on these days. The world is a scary ass place and you need a security blanket.

Point B - I said this once to a friend of mine and I'll say it again. I believe in God. I don't label my faith as being Christian or what not. I believe in Jesus. I believe in the teachings of the bible. I've placed my faith in it and yanno, its been tried tested and true - for myself. Besides wheres the harm? I learn to treat others as I want to be treated, I learn to love and forgive and not hold grudges. I learn that violence against another person is wrong. I learn to be happy with what I have and not long for something that is not mine. I learn contentment and hope. If I die tomorrow and there is no heaven and hell, I've lost nothing. But if there is, and I chose not to believe, then that leaves me with nothing.

All the good things on this earth cant follow you to the grave and when I die I want to be remembered as a good person, because its your memories you leave here that will last and the bible teaches us life lessons, good lessons and enriches our lives and makes us better people. And in all seriousness, I know I'm not perfect I don't always follow these things to a 'T' but I try. Its better than shrugging it off and pretending none of it exists.

Point C - its faith. Faith is the essense of belief in things not yet seen. If I knew there was a god, could prove it and believed then it wouldn't be faith. It takes strength of character to believe in something with your heart when you can't see it. No one can prove there is not God. And though I chose to believe there is thats me I can't force you into it so don't try and force me out of it. In my head and my heart it makes sense. And in the end if I'm wrong then I die and I don't know the difference. No harm done.

Thats my rant.

I think initially there was something else I wanted to say, but I can't remember it.